Was browsing through his blog... all the way back to Aug'08... I guess he really missed and love his kitty lots.

So many things in my mind now.. these 2 days I wasn't that happy..as I was doing some reflections, about life, academic, social and everything. It's really good to do self reflections. I have a clearer picture of what I want and aim for the next semester. I'm very clear that my academic results are not fantastic, or I should say not up to my targets at all. All the way back to poly year 1, I have never feel so terrible like now.. I never worry about my examination results.. but now..I feel so terrible when people start asking me about my grades and start comparing who's results are good and stuff like that. I know that this is something that I need to overcome it myself, but I just can't walk out of this nightmare. These 2 years in uni, the most happiest semester was my year 2 sem 1. Uni results are really disappointing, and I start to hate the feeling of been take to comparison with others. Left with 1 year, if I work really hard, can I still manage to climb up by a bit? I really hope I can... Really thanks to my stats.. with that grade, I drop all the way down..I should consider myself lucky that I didnt fail...Is I I didnt put in much effort or I already reached my maximum.. I believe that I can push myself even further! I really dont want to give up, I'm 2/3 there... I just feel very sad and I know people who cares for me will be pondering, what happen to me? I'm really sad... I dont know who to talk to.. I want to drop him a message, but I know he's busy at work..shant disturb him..

 

Love,

Vanz